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From the very beginning of my life, it was a mess. Even as a child, I was emotionally and verbally abused by men I looked up to. I was so hurt, that it was all I knew. From a young age, I never knew that I could be rid of the never-ending pain: it was torture. I had tried to run my life, but I just messed it up even more. As a teenager, I was abusive to other people, because that was all I had been taught. I didn’t want to be, but I was. I didn’t know how to change, I didn’t know I could. Even though I grew up with a christian background, going to church every Sunday as a kid, I still didn’t understand. I didn’t understand that Jesus loved me, no matter what I did. I was living in ignorance. I wanted to change, but for many years, I tried to change myself. This just caused more hurt, and in the end I was worse off. I gave my life to Jesus when I was twelve: it was on my first youth group camp. Although nothing changed straight away, I still knew I had Jesus in my life. Eventually, the novelty wore off, and I gave up because I thought it was too hard. Once again, I tried to run my own life, but I just messed it up again. Yet again I was off the path that God wanted for me. Up until the age of 16, I tried to run my own life. Many times during my teenage years, I had contemplated suicide. I still held onto the hurt inside of me, and I wouldn’t let it go. At age 16, I recommitted my life to the Lord. I was baptised on October 17th that year. It is only since the beginning of 2002 that I have been able to let go of my past hurts, and it is only by the grace of God that I made it through one of the hardest parts of my life. Without God, I am nothing; without Him, I can do nothing. It is only because of God’s grace that I am not lying in a gutter. He saved me from eternal debt to sin, by sending His Son Jesus Christ to die for me. Jesus took the debt of my wrong doings on His shoulders; He took the blame, and died by being nailed to a cross. This is why I wear a cross: to remind me of what He did for me. I believe I have been called to full time ministry, as a teacher of God’s Word. To be a messenger to God’s people. To help people through the teaching of God’s word. Since beginning this call, I have come to know that our God is definately the God of the impossible! I never would have thought of myself as a writer and teacher, but here I am doing the very thing which I though was impossible. "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20 (NIV) I would not be the person I am today, without going through the things that I did. Praise God for bringing me through! Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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