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I am married and had been having an affair for almost 2 years. I got pregnant by the other man who was also married. We decided that i needed to abort the baby to save both our families the hurt of finding out what we had done. To save both our families hurt, but to abort this baby? That i think was the hardest part for me. After i filled out the paperwork at the clinic, i had an ultrasound. I will NEVER forget what i saw on that screen. I was only like 7 weeks pregnant, but i saw my baby. I debated whether to go back the next day for the procedure. I kept thinking, how would we tell everyone what we did? I wasnt sure he would even want to have a part in this childs life, so the next day, i went. There were 7 other girls there doing the same thing i was and it made me sick. The nurse gave me pain medication, but i refused, i thought for being so selfish, i too should feel the pain of what im doing to this baby. It was over in a matter of minutes. I got home, and had to play like nothing was wrong. My other 2 children came home and when i saw them, i wanted to cry. I thought, how could i have done this, look at my babies, they are so precious. I still feel the overwhelming guilt over what i have done. To make matters worse, i had it done May 7 2003, a few days before mothers day. There are alot of other choices out there. I know there are many people unable to have children who could have adopted mine. My best friends sister miscarried not too long ago, and thats when it really hit me. I aborted a baby because i was too worried about anyone finding out what i had done, and here was someone who really wanted a baby, and lost hers. Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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