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I've been a Christian all my life but a personal relationship with God never seemed real until now. I grew up having feelings and fantasies about other women. I didn't look at boys the way my friends did and I thought there was something wrong with me. I couldn't tell my parents, I had no one to turn to. When I reached high school, I fell in love with another woman. The relationship became very mentally abusive. She wouldn't let me leave the house, she screened my phone calls, she became very violent and would trash the house, ruining my personal belongings. She would tell me I couldn't live without her, that she was the only one who would ever love me. During this time, I became depressed and attempted suicide. I swallowed a handful of pills and was hospitalized. She convinced me to stay with her but the abuse only continued. I was very confused during this time. I still had an attraction towards other women but I also wanted the "normal" lifestyle. She played off my emotions and for the next 3 years, I endured this mental abuse and unhappiness. I started having my own outbursts and didn't know what was happening to me. I was soon diagnosed with bi-polar. Not only was I confused about my sexuality but now I couldn't trust any of my feelings because I always felt something different everyday. During the fourth year of our relationship, we broke up and got back together several times. Each time I asked God to take away these feelings I was having. Despite the fact that homosexuality was wrong and that this woman did nothing but abuse me I still wanted to be with her. Through patience and prayer I have found release from this sinful lifestyle. If you want more information, or just someone to talk to, you can reach me at tara_lin21@yahoo.com. God Bless, Tara Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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