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My name is Karen Chang and I live in El Salvador, San Salvador. I am now currently a high school student. I have accepted the Lord one year ago. I have changed drastically since last year. This is how it all began... I was raised to multi-religion family. My family believed in every religion. They never took seriously this theme. I was always influenced by my family and friends and tried to imitate them. I always considered myself as a Catholic, but I always had doubts. My brother was baptized as a Catholic but I didn’t (luckily). My grandmother is a very devout Catholic since she suffered in a war and the only thing she did was praying to idols. I started to walk in the darkness when I was pretty young. I started to say bad words in front of everyone when I was just six years old. I played Satan’s games when I was 7. They were all about witchcraft and the occult. I got very influenced in this and I started to hate everyone when I was just 8. I was not considered a nice person. The first time I got to know Christ was when I was 8 and a half. I accepted Jesus as my savior but my heart didn’t. I didn’t change but somehow, I was influenced by brothers and sisters. My cousin and I were very close. If she hated something, I hated it that too. If she hated the church, I did hate them too. I started to insult them and rejecting them. I stopped going to church and followed the “flow”. I felt wrong and bad when I first did this. I started to get “in-crowded” by creating a satanic club with a friend. I was 9 and a half at that time. We did signs with hands to represent swore words. I even learnt to show the middle finger in front of everyone. I did graffiti everywhere and owned a very rebellious character. Satan was walking with me at that time. I had “imaginary” friends but I always did get some idea of the occult. I didn’t care about God and was terribly afraid of death because I knew I was going to hell. I then spent long years walking in the “go with the flow” road. I started idolizing pop stars and wasted time thinking about romantic matters. I always prayed before going to sleep but I knew they weren’t heard. I started to feel lonely and depressed. I always had in my mind, a suicidal attempt. I needed Jesus so much. I then returned to church when I was just too lonely. I felt like a dirty rag surrounded by clean hearts. But I didn’t dare to express my lonely feeling and kept bullying everyone. I thought they were wrong. When I was 11, my conscience was getting smaller. I did everything for getting popular and hanged out with new friends. In January 4 of 2001, I went to the church to view a slide show. I couldn’t reject such a friendly invitation. So I went and had lunch. My sisters showed me some slides about the life of Jesus Christ. It moved me of how Christ lived his life. The last part, I remember was that he was crucified. I then was very sad. I was so glad that Christ had washed my sins. I accepted Christ as my savior. But one thing was missing from me, the reject of sin. I sinned again and felt very bad. Sometimes in the night, Satan would come and paralyze me. I couldn’t move and felt very scared. I prayed but it didn’t go away. Maybe due to my weak spirit. I then read a book called “Assurance of Salvation”, and thought that my heart hasn’t reject sin. I then knelt down and prayed out loud. This time was for real, my spirit was born. I felt the lovely and warm love of God in me. It was so beautiful. Sometimes in the day I feel this feeling. I was sure I was getting to heaven and that I had rejected my sins. I’ve changed a lot. I had stopped to say swore words and if I accidentally say one, I feel depressed. I draw near to the Lord daily and pray more. I love Jesus Christ and I have a new life. All my life, I will dedicate it to my Lord, glorifying His name and praising Him. Satan is very weak against my strong spirit. I am with the Lord and the Lord with me. Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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