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My storie is not unlike many others that have been tossed to and fro by the storms of life before we accepted Jesus Christ. I'was born with a passion to sing. That passion took me down many roads and most of the "not so good". My desire to understand why I was here on earth at all drove me, enslaved me, and almost destroyed me. I searched and searched. I searched to find answers in drugs, through relationships with men, through the entertainment world, and so on...all I found was trouble and trouble and more trouble. I was always in mental anguish. No one ( no matter how much they tried to love me, how good they were to me or how mean they were to me) could apease the empty feeling that always lingered deep inside of me. Five times I attempted to kill myself. There were times when I would be so messed up on drugs that weeks, even months would go by without my realizing it. I was out of control. I was breaking down mentally, emotionally, and physicaly. I want love and kept pushing it away. I hated myself so how could I love or accept love from anyone else.? But all those years there was a man praying for me . He had never even met me. He knew my mother. He told me years later that there were nights when he would wake up and pray till sweat ran down his face.. for me. He did not have any idea what I was going through, but Jesus did. I was having a mental breakdown. I was seeing devils and satan. I saw images come to me and tell me they were going to take me away. I wrote about death, sang about death, and thought of death all the time. Praise God, God had someone praying for me. I didn't know it. It did not seem like anyone cared about me, most of all God... but HE had someone praying. My mind began to come back to me. My heart began to soften and through a series of events the Lord led me home. On a small back pourch all alone in the midnight hours..I heard a small inward voice calling to me..This voice was gentle, this voice was different, this voice was filled with love and life.. I know now that inner knowing what to do.. was the voice of the Holy Spirit calling me to the Father. I called that man that had prayed for me all those years that night..and I gave my life to Jesus. From that moment to this a changing process began in my life. No one could ever tell me the Holy Spirit is not real, or that Jesus Christ is not real. I've met them and they changed my life forever. I have grown in my understanding of the ways of God over the years, and have gone to Bible School, Missionary Training School, and have founded three different works for the Lord that helps people come to know Jesus Christ, grow in their knowledge of the Word, and establishes them in their christian walk. I've authored 5 books which are just now begining to spread like wild fire and I travel and speak all over the United States and overseas. I've founded two churches and Pastor CTM-Word Of Faith Ministries today. CTM stands for "called to maturity". There are so many wonderful things inside each of us. God put them inside us when HE created us. The enemy is out to destroy every person he can. He is out to bring destruction to as many lives as he can. When we accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, death and darkness leaves our spirit and life and light comes in. All the things God put inside of us can now begin to grow and produce for HIS glory . When that happens we BECOME FULFILLED AND CONTENT IN LIFE. NO MORE FEAR OF DEATH, BECAUSE WE KNOW THERE IS NO DEATH TO THOSE IN CHRIST. It does not matter what you've done, or where your life has taken you. Jesus loves you and God wants you as part of His family. And as of right now today, you have SOMEBODY PRAYING FOR YOU. See you at home..heaven that is..that is home. Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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