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My brother and I grew up in a home without a father. He had left before i was born, when my brother was still a little baby. For the longest time when I grew into adolescence, I had felt that I had been all alone when I was growing up. When she was home, my mom and the rest of my family tried to instill some faith into my life, but growing up the way that I did, the only faith I had was in myself. As I came into high school, I began to fall farther and farther away from the grace of God. I began falling in with the wrong crowd, as so many of us often do. The only difference is that I wasn't like the people I associated with. I never really got into drugs or alcohol, but that didn't make me a better person. In fact I was worse of a person than all my "friends" were. I was a hypocrite. I claimed to be a friendly, unbiased person who claimed to be nobody's judge. But when nobody was around I was none of these things. I would degrade people and push them around. I was not living up to the standards that I set. Then, my senior year in high school, I began to hang around with some old friends of mine, whom I hadn't really associated with in several years. It was through these friends that I began to realize the true undying love that God has for me. Later in the year I gave myself back to Him who created me. Four days before I left for college I was baptized in His love by the Holy Spirit. Since that time, I have still had my struggles. There are many times in my life that I find it hard to do the things I know are right. But over time I've begun to put my trust in God and not myself. I've started realizing that all those years that I felt that I had made it on my own, that it had nothing to do with me. I had been blaming God for leaving me alone as a child, and now I can look back and realize that all that time, it was God who raised me, and not myself. But now more than ever, I am doing my best to rely fully on God. Sometimes it's hard, but I know He's there with me, all the time. Now I feel Him telling me that ministry is my calling, and this is just an amizing testament to his grace and forgiveness. Because if He can forgive me, a former Satanist, into the ministry, than He can truly do anything. II Corinthians 5:17 Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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