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~ The Testemony of Breunis Oosterhof ~ The common consensus among Christian Ministries in the field of homosexuality seems to be that men turn to men `cos of a lack of early male bonding.I cannot confirm or deny this but can remember being more attracted to boys than girls from a very young age.At first the idea of heterosexual sex made me cringe and that of homosexual sex made me ill.But as my sexuality developed,I grew to accept both,became active in both and the homosexual side took over. I went through various stages over 12 yrs - living a gay lifestyle,wanting to be straight,deciding to accept being `bisexual` etc.I was hospitalised a few times for depression and took medication on and off.I even "commited" my life to Christ some time back but I held back things I shoud`ve let go so it didn`t `work out`.I got married 4 yrs ago but was never faithfull.I lied,stole money and even paid for sex a few times.My marriage was cramping my lifestyle and I wanted out.I blamed all sorts of things,even my poor step-children who had been through hell lready. Esentially,I was looking for fulfillment but in all the wrong places.As a `last resoert`,I told my wife the truth.Actually for the 1st time in my life the deep down guilt was surfacing and it hurt!I was expecting and `hoping` that she`d tell me to pack up and go,but she didn`t.Instead she told me that she loves and forgives and so does God.Neither myself nor the devil were expecting that and boy were we upset.She had being fasting and praying for weeks.All along I just couldn`t bring myself to simply pack my things and leave.After some time of nagging,I agreed to see a Pastor with my wife.Just to `shut her up`.Then once there,I agreed to accept help just to get out quickly.Well my intentions weren`t right but God took the gap and that`s when the battle between Him and the devil began.Offcourse it had to won - by God - He always wins!!It`s when there`s no spiritual avtivity in someone that there`s a problem.On 28/2/99 I accepted Christ as my Lord and Saviour for once and for all - no holding anything back. Since then everything about me has changed.Sure I still get tempted with the old things,that`s all satan has to go on,but a frogs defence mechanism is to play dead and that`s what we need to do.Play dead froggy!I am a new creation.Old things have passed away,all things are new (2 Corinthians 5:17).God is bringing out the best in me.He is using me for who I am,melting me down and moulding me.He is the potter and I am the clay (Isaiah 64;8).He WILL complete the work which He began in me (Phillipians 4:13). I would like as many people as possible to see this,in order to glorify God.Anyone wanting to send it to someone,repost it etc etc is welcome to do so.I only ask that if you need to edit,please send the edited version to me for aproval beforehand.Also please remember that praising anyone for something God has done,is idolatrous.I can be mailed with any questions,comments etc at : Redeeemed_99@Hotmail.com ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Preach the Word;be prepared in season and out of season; correct,rebuke and encourage - with great patience and carefull instruction.For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine.Instead,to suit their own desires,they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths.But you,keep your head in all situations,endure hardship,do the work of an evangelist,discharge all the duties of your Ministry." - 2 Timothy 4:2-5 (NIV) ____________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com Click HERE to return to the edited story Click HERE to create a banner that links to this story! Your e-mail address will be kept private!
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